I started a Substack for my writing!
It’s about time I take my writing more seriously, I think for the millionth time!
When I look at my body of work over the last decade, I see so many ways that I’ve functioned as a mirror for people to see themselves in my words, in my thoughts. I see the value of that, and I want to offer more ways for people to return that positive feedback, in ways that are easy and enjoyable. I’m open to receiving, finally! (It can really take years to get out of our own way.)
Here is an excerpt from my intro essay to explain where I’m at with this new venture. I hope you’ll subscribe! There are mix of free and paid essay posts. By getting a paid subscription, you’ll see all of the content, but more importantly, you’re also contributing to my expanded world-building in such a valuable way.
smallspells.substack.com
smallspells.substack.com
smallspells.substack.com
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Why am I starting a Substack now? I’m feeling addicted to information in a way that isn’t helpful, and I think writing more consistently, and tbh, about life things that extend beyond horoscopes and astrology, will help move and organize my thoughts in such a way where the distraction desire will lesson (I hope?). I’ve also been working to “live my work” more, which for me looks like honoring my thoughts, my intuitions, my perspective, my words more. My hypnosis work is all about being in love with how the mind works, in order to use its healing powers more easily, and when my mind is filled with a bunch of random, boring, violent or transactional input from “media”, I can’t really access the unique dance of the constant neural linking of my own mind. I want to feel embodied inside a spiderweb of my own making, so that each thread joins to another one in a strong and sensical way, essentially world-building inside my mind, which naturally makes it easier to then world-build through external action.
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Truthfully, I want to be off of Instagram. For real this time, since I’ve had this feeling for a while now: that my life would be so much better in some ways if I didn’t tap into this poison well every day. And I have been looking less, posting less, caring less, in some ways because real life feels almost as full as it did pre-pandemic, and in some ways because IG is pushing us away by showing us all of the garbage we don’t want and none of the gold we actually want. And while I was about to say, and my livelihood depends on it, it’s actually becoming more true that it doesn’t even function well in that way anymore. Which leads me to things like this Substack. My hope is that you’ll subscribe and contribute a little bit to my world-building, and that I’ll be developing something real here, that can turn into a book, or a new offering, or something I haven’t thought of yet.
I love writing. Not all the time, and not about just anything. But I really do live in my head a lot, and love to piece together thoughts and feelings. And through my work, I’ve discovered that most of the time, when I write about what feels super specific to me, in a super specific way, it ends up also being resonant for others. I’ve also been feeling ever-increasingly confident in my reading skills (tarot and intuition), and trusting in my mind to put together words in interesting and enjoyable ways. And letting myself take pleasure in that, with less self-consciousness, because I’m also training myself to re-engage with “weird and different” instead of “trending and viral”. I personally prefer the unusual to the trending, but even I succumb to the intense marketing of social media apps to be palatable and understandable to everyone.
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I want my relationship with words to change a bit, just to mature and grow up, as a courtesy to you all. Part of this is moving my writing here, away from IG with its word limits and its trends, where opening up my heart and mind has become toxic at the worst and feels futile at best. I want my words to be potent, all of them. A witch uses words as spells: desire is powerful, is enacted through language, and shapes reality. I feel this very much when giving readings, as I know my words are landing more heavily than another type of conversation.
In these Substack posts I am going to try to write with the same long form intention. And from a place of assembling reality through my own observations and conclusions, uninfluenced, as if I didn’t know much except my own thoughts.
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